Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Sorry ladies gotta do a little rantin
So for some reason I have been very moody lately. Im not really sure why but I have been really aggravated with Chris. I have spoken before bout my "trust" issues, and its something that I dont really know how to overcome, I do trust Chris and its not him in general per say, I know he would never do anything to hurt me, I just always assume the worst and take something and blow it way out of proportion. It causes moments in our relationship to be very tough and stressed. Its like im always waiting for him to leave me, I have always thought down of myself and have always felt that Im not up to standards and that he just "settled" for me, and I hate that. Sunday I was putting Christopher's car seat in his truck because we were going to his sisters, well I noticed a card in the floor board, so of course being the person I am picked it up and read it, well it was from a female Deputy and she was pretty much saying that she was glad he was ok (he had a wreck a few weeks back), well instantly my signals went up, because if you know Chris he isnt the type for someone to buy him a card, so I put it back in the floor board and didnt say anything I was a little stand offish to him the rest of the night, so on the way home from his sisters he was being so romantic, I was sitting in the middle of the truck and he kept his hand on my knee and was singing to me and I thought ok Becca I think your just over reacting dont be a hag so I let it go, we came home curled up on the couch and watched the Colts play (THEY WON!!!) So everything was fine his cousin came over and he was talking about a sale Walmart was having and the night he worked a special up there another Female Dep. called him and asked him if he would get her something and she would come by and pick it up, then it went up again! So I got up and went to bed. That was pretty much it, then this morning he wasnt home before I left to take all the kids to school and go to work, which aggravated me because he gets off 1hr before I leave, and to make matters worse I needed the check for Christophers Daycare and he wasnt there so by the time I dropped off the oldest ones for school I was steaming, I called him and asked him if he had found his way home yet and he said yes and I said Good then Ill be BACK by there to get the baby's check, I walked in picked it up and slammed the door on the way out. Now... I feel horrible, he thinks Im mad and has no clue why, am I over reacting? am I just being silly bout stupid childish crap? I dont know, Im just 0ne of those people that hates to leave the house mad at him, I always have the thought of what if its the last time I see him? Then the only thing that he heard last from me was me slamming the door for something he has no clue about....link | posted by Mommy at 8:26 AM
2 Comments:
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Heather Noel had this to say:
Did you talk to him yet?
- 11/07/2006 8:05 PM
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Mandy had this to say:
What I know for 100% is that keeping it bottled up will not help.
- 11/08/2006 8:48 AM
